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Trying to remember that there is always a reason, always something that makes you smile during the day- recognizing the event, person or situation that made you smile will make your day seem that much better.

Tuesday, November 30, 2010

there's truth behind every 'just kidding', curiosity behind every 'just wondering', knowledge behind every 'I don't know' and emotion behind every 'I don't care

No idea who said this.  One of my friends had this posted as their facebook status the other day and I completely agree with this statement. 
I am in a slump.  I wake up every morning, get ready for work, make coffee, drive to work, work all day, drive home, cook dinner, watch tv or do homework and go to bed, sleep for a few hours, toss and turn, sleep for another hour, lather rinse and repeat.
I don't know if it's just "this time of year" or just feeling ambivalent about things, but I am in desperate need of something to shake things up a bit.  I usually feel this way at the end of the year as it's dark out all the time (or at least what I get to see of the day driving to and from work). 
Work is crazy and long...but a project is finishing up so hopefully the late nights will be cut back to one a week starting next week.  
To top everything all off, we need to decide what we are doing about the follow up with the fertility clinic.  My health insurance changes at the beginning of next year and it doesn't cover any treatments so if we start now, we will either not be able to finish it or pay for it out of pocket. So, that's a pretty huge decision we are trying to make.
Not exactly oozing positivity and rainbows tonight.  
Your blogs bring smiles to my faces on a regular basis and I love reading everything that's going on in your lives....so thank you allowing me to witness your lives...


  1. I hope you feel better soon...*hugs* I hope things work out for you...

  2. Sweetie...I feel for you. I really do. Sounds like its a culmination of things at a bad time of year. I think deep down you're really worried about having a baby. You've got to try to not stress about it so much. Relax and just enjoy every day and see what it brings you. Hugs to you sweetie...with a great deal of sincerity.

  3. I feel for you for such a tough decision to make! I sympathize with you on the "rut" feelings, too. I'm better today. Will be posting an update later (taking a while to formulate) but want to let you know there is a light at the end of the tunnel. Just keep plodding toward it!

  4. I feel for you too girl. Just posted on my blog how this season really brings me down with everyone going at light speed in the wrong direction expending all their energy on the wrong things. Top that with winter moving in. But my friend there is hope and that is "choice". We can choose to let it destroy our days or find ways to brighten our days. I choose to take the other road into the light. I still hate the commercialization of the season but I have to make it better for Odie and hopefully help others along the way. That's what God put us here for I think. Hope you find joy in your day.

  5. It isn't possible to always have "up" days so give yourself permission to be down sometimes. I wish I could send you some sunshine and warm weather but I can only sent you a virtual hug. Look after yourself lovely lady

  6. I am sending you a big hug as well, Col. Be kind to yourself, TRY not to worry too much (Easier said than done, I know) and,as Barb says, try to relax and something good will happen for you. I know it. A little prayer for you:
    Circle me O God, keep hope within, despair without.
    Circle me O God, keep peace within, keep turmoil out.
    Circle me O God, keep calm within, keep storms without.
    Circle me O God, keep strength within, keep weakness out.