This is a fun question- don't we all have bucket lists. I do. I actually have a physical list that I carry around with me to look at from time to time to see what I can do today that's on the list. There are big things- like go to Australia, go bungee jumping again, climb mt. everest, drink tea at a Chinese tea house, see the tulips in Holland, swim with sharks. There are little things- like spend the day with my nephews chasing bugs, follow a rainbow to the end, spend a day coloring, enjoy every day for the blessing it is. Make one person smile a day.
Over the past six months or so- there is one thing that I want to do more than anything in the world. One thing that would truly make me the happiest person in the world. I want to have a baby. I want to see the look on my husband's face when I tell him we are pregnant. I want to see the tears in his eyes when he holds the child in his arms for the first time. I want to see him get excited about first steps, be a kid in Disney World with his baby, watch them grow up and walk down the aisle when he/she gets married. I want the late night feedings, the snuggling, the bandaids when they get hurt, the pictures on the refrigerator. I want to be the one that a child is yelling for when they yell mommy. I want the opportunity to teach someone how to appreciate all the little things in life.
I don't know if this is ever going to happen and it upsets me more than I could possibly put into words. We could adopt- hubby isn't really into that idea at all. This is the one thing that is so important that it's not on a bucket list anywhere. This is something that we are trying, testing, taking pills, acupuncture, dieting, waiting and waiting for. I know that it will happen when it is meant to happen. I know that the time just isn't right for some unknown reason. The one thing that I would give everything up for right now- to be a mom, to watch my husband be a dad
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- colenic
- Trying to remember that there is always a reason, always something that makes you smile during the day- recognizing the event, person or situation that made you smile will make your day seem that much better.
My wishes, thoughts and prayers are that this comes true for you Colenic. I can imagine the smiles you would give to such a lucky baby.
ReplyDeleteI'm with Skippy, may your hope and wish come true.
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I really hope and pray that your dream will come true very soon, Col. I'm sure you would make a wonderful mum and I really do hope that it all happens for you x
ReplyDeleteHoly shit...swim with the sharks!!!!! I have a fear of sharks yet I am fascinated with them.
ReplyDeleteI hope your dream comes true for both you and your husband.
Good luck with the baby making...isn't the best part supposed to be all that trying? :) Hed hed down under
ReplyDeleteLike the old saying goes "Good things happen to those who wait". It will happen eventually. And I hope it does but most importantly, enjoy everything else that life has to offer you. Somehow I think you do!!
ReplyDeletei am with the rest - hoping and praying for you to have your dream come true. my daughter is also praying for a baby.
ReplyDeletei could never swim with the sharks. {shudder}