Day 14: A Hero who has let you down

Another tough one.
Is there someone who I have considered a hero in my life??  There are people that I have looked up to- there are people who I have held to a higher standard absolutely.  Does that make them a hero?? I don't know.
One person who I looked up to and who I had the utmost respect for let me down worse than anyone else in my life.   She had great ideas, she was a go getter, she wanted to make a difference in the lives of these kids.  She was one of them who had made good for herself.  She was going to change the world and make the lives of these kids better.  When you were on her good side, you were golden.  But she could flip on a dime and when you were on her bad side- you not only knew it- but you were punished for it.  As long as she needed you around, you were okay but the minute you questioned or tried something knew you were in for it.  Silent treatment, confrontations about the smallest things, no support with anything.  It was a tough work environment, but I always felt worse for the girls.  They truly looked up to her and tried to make her happy.  Once they were on her bad side, we knew it was only a matter of time before they left.  Trying to give them a steady environment where they could grow was sometimes tough.  She had such great ideas and a great team of people working with her.  We were a solid group of coworkers and all of us wanted to see the place be successful- we would throw around ideas, programs, etc and it was really good- until it wasn't anymore.  When I left, I felt like a piece of my soul stayed there.  When I get together with some of the people that I worked with from that place, we talk about the fact that it's almost PTSD from being there.  This individual, I looked up to her and believed 100% in what she was doing.  I poured my heart and soul into my job and it has taken me a long time to get parts of those back.  She, incidentally, has since left that line of work and was arrested for prostitution.