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Saturday, January 8, 2011

mid life crisis

At some point, you have to make a decision. Boundaries don't keep other people out, they fence you in. Life is messy. That's how we're made. So you can waste your time drawing lines or you can live your life crossing them (random status on facebook)

I am having a midlife crisis.  Ha ha- okay not exactly a midlife crisis- but I am feeling quite claustrophobic lately.  I ran into three people at the store the other night when i was in my yoga pants and hoodie.  I just feel like I am doing the same things over and over.  I want to run away.  I want to pack up everything and go somewhere else.  Somewhere that it is possible to get lost in the city, in the store, in the normal every day parts of my life.  There are many people in the state where I live who are here because they love the fact that they know everything about everyone.  I am not that person.  I don't know my neighbors and really I am okay with that....
It is one of those moments where I want to go...run away...far away....I want to move somewhere else...even just for a little while...do something completely different in my work life.  I am good at my job, not bragging, but I am in a sales position that has very measurable goals that I have met or exceeded on a regular basis.  I don't want to be good at my job.  I want something that challenges me- that isn't the same thing every day. I think, in a way, being good at my job is just another box that I am in- it's hard to stretch and grow when you are doing so well where you are.

I want the excitement of the first day of a new job, looking for and decorating a new house, a new city where you can't drive everywhere with your eyes closed.  There is nothing like walking out of a hotel in a big city and getting lost in the throngs on people who almost carry you  onto the sidewalk.  There are people who hate this (my hubby being one of them) but I thrive on it...to take my camera and take pictures...to decide to turn left or right and know that you will see something new.  

This is a pretty rambling post- but I guess I just feel like the box is getting so small that I can't stretch my arms out and go exploring.  I will get over it- I always do....maybe a vacation to someplace new...maybe a quick weekend trip to New York or taking advantage of some time in Boston soon...I am craving the site and smells of a city....


  1. Stop by and pick me up on your way...I feel like this way too often...I'll even chip in for gas :-)

  2. Take a trip down to Foxwoods Casino. It's a city in itself and you will see sights like you wouldn't believe. And you won't have to worry about snow and cold since it's all covered. As for the job, I totally understand that one. That's when I would start job hunting for something else. If I couldn't stay stimulated I was not happy. Hope you get some kind of reprieve! Hugs.

  3. I get that feeling frequently and what I love to do is find a country road I have never been down before and just start driving seeing what I can see and loving every minute of it. I need that from time to time and haven't done it lately. I need to.

  4. I am like you, but my husband is a home body too - hang in there!

    Thanks for your link for the carrot soup - its one I've never made and might even make it for my lunch today!

    Have a great weekend!

  5. Sounds like mini-vacation time...nothing too expensive, just getting away.

    I, on the other hand, due to my job, tend to avoid people at all costs. I like being outside and the weather does close me in but there will be days I can ramble outside, soon.

  6. I think it's that time of year, Col, when a lot of people start to think like this. It's not very nice when it happens though. Perhaps it's time to look at some travel brochures and get a little mini-break booked, so you have something to look forward to.

  7. Some times I feel the same way...you should pack your bag and go somewhere....maybe a get away for some time or something...wish I could join you...:)