Eleven Years ago today

I was excited and nervous and happy and emotional...and really young.
I had this idealized thought of marriage and what it meant and what happened when you were married.
I had wonderful role models in my parents who have been married for a really long time...
If you had told me eleven years ago the amount of work that goes into being married, I would have looked at you like you were nuts....we love each other...easy peasy..
Yeah right!! I have learned a lot over the last eleven years:
It's okay to laugh and cry at the same time
You and your spouse will get angry and mad and yell and scream at each other
Sometimes, walking away is the best thing to do, but horrifying to wonder if your spouse will ever come back
You have to give up a little bit of yourself to be happily married...and that's not a bad thing
A bit of independence is good
Traveling together is fabulous, but it's okay to travel alone
Not going to bed angry isn't something that your grandmother just says....you really shouldn't cause nothing gets better and you are crabby after stewing all night and that makes it worse.
A grudge isn't something you should hold on to, it gets awfully heavy
While love is a strong emotion and can get you through a lot...sometimes it's hard to find it buried in there somewhere..
Marriage has ebbs and flows...and there will be times when you can't function without your spouse and sometimes you can't function with them.
It's okay to rely on someone else
You will worry about them...constantly....and if you don't hear from them...you will start to wonder what if you have to start to picture your life without them
You will remember that worry and hopefully pick up the phone when you will be late..
Their eyes will become a window to your soul
You will make mistakes, the best part about those mistakes is when you can look back and know that you have moved passed them together.
Although they may not be able to move mountains or fix everything for you, they will ALWAYS try to make it better...
Sometimes not being able to make it better is worse than what's actually going on.
Ending every conversation with I love you should always happen
Eleven years ago today I made the most important decision of  my life...
I have been elated by it
I have hated it at times
I couldn't imagine my life any other way.
You are my everything,
You are my world.
Although it hasn't always been easy, it has been worth it
I love you deeper
I love you more
I love you in a completely different way than I loved you eleven years ago
You are the reason my heart keeps beating and part of my soul
I loved you yesterday, love you today and will love you forever.
Here's to eleven years honey.
I don't know how much time we have to share, but I am looking forward to every single minute of it.