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Trying to remember that there is always a reason, always something that makes you smile during the day- recognizing the event, person or situation that made you smile will make your day seem that much better.

Thursday, November 3, 2011

Thursday Thoughts

This week has been a whirlwind of emotions…

I have wanted to laugh,



And sing all in the same breath

I have gotten frustrated beyond belief

I have felt the elation that only a child who trusts you completely can bring

I have walked into my house after a bad day and had it made all better by the singsong voices of a child

And walked into my house after a pretty good day and been deflated and frustrated/

I have alternated between being completely happy and completely disappointed

The extremes of my emotions have been tough for me to handle,

Made even worse because I haven’t been sleeping….too much to think about

It will be okay….there are hidden smiles in everything.

A little hand

A snuggle on the couch

A huge hug when I come in from work

Watching hubby with the kids

Eating dinner together as a family

I know that there is an adjustment period..

And I know that we are right in the middle of that adjustment

I am hoping for patience right now

Patience to teach

Patience to guide

Patience to respond appropriately

I am hoping for trust

Trust that things are being done the way I am being told

Trust that it will get better

Trust that it will work

I am hoping for understanding

Understanding that it is going to be different

Understanding that they don’t know better

Understanding that not everything goes the way we want it to.

I feel the mental shift, starting in the back of my brain.

I take a deep breath before speaking

I take a moment before going in the house

I take a break when I need to

I try to be patient,

I try to trust

I try to understanding.

I need to try harder to teach, to guide.

I need to try harder to concentrate on the smiles.

The big picture is there- I see it and know what it will look like- but right now- we are stuck in the minute details- and sometimes those details seem like they are going to overwhelm that picture.


  1. It will get better. You are adjusting and you're a sweetheart for even doing what you're doing. Step outside if it's tough. Breathe in some fresh air and exhale. Walk back in with a smile. Don't get overwhelmed. It's alot at once. Don't be hard on yourself. Hugs

  2. that was beautiful and it will get better and easier.

  3. Hugs for you sweet. There is light at the end f the tunnel even if you can't always see it. Just keep breathing

  4. I love your honesty in these posts Col. It's bound to be overwhelming for you at times. Such a change in your household. I agree with the others, don't let it overwhelm you. It is such a good thing that you are doing, and you and hubby should be proud. Hang in there - it WILL get easier!