Blah blah blah

Ever feel like the only words that come out of your mouth are blah blah blah>
My job, as exciting as it is, requires lots of talking on the phone
Today was just blah blah blah
No connections, no spark
Blah blah blah
Yep, we can
No we don't
blah blah blah
Emails written, carefully formatted, words carefully chosen
blah blah blah
There's meaning there, but no impact.
Interactions every day...good...fine...great...yep..nope...maybe
Blah blah blah
Called my mother, can't wait to see you, it will be fun...what, yep sure, call me later
blah blah blah
Talked to my grandmother-
I am honestly not even sure what we talked about...
blah blah blah
Silence, no talking, all alone...and still..through my head runs
blah blah blah
Typing, writing, more email, more statuses,
Blah blah blah.
Hubby's home...superficial conversation
Blah blah blah
Vacation is soon....different environment, different people...
hopefully that will drive the recording of blah blah blah out of my head..

Hugs and love to you all..

the weekend

Harry Potter was awesome!!! Well worth staying up late and seeing...I can't believe that it's all over...but we will be going to see it again with my brother and my mom next week in IMAX..
Yesterday's interviews went really well. I think that I touched on everything that I felt the position needed to offer and the four people that I interviewed with agreed with me..which was awesome. Hopefully they will make a decision soon. It would be nice to get started if they are going to offer me the job.
It was odd talking about the things that I would do differently in the department. I have immense respect for my boss and what she does, but she's one person and they really need someone in there who can help and concentrate on the "stuff" that isn't being dealt with now. If I don't get the job, I hope that they at least listen to what I said and the new person that they get in there will be able to concentrate on some of what I talked about. The only way I won't get the job is if they interview someone who is more experienced than I am.
We were supposed to head up north this weekend to help hubby's dad with some stuff but apparently he doesn't need our help so we will spend the weekend at home....need to get laundry put away and pack for our trip next week.
This week was full of smiles, from Harry Potter to interviews it was a good week and I am grateful for a weekend to just kinda chill and relax. Hope that you all are having a great one and enjoying the time away from work... hugs and lots of love to you!!!

First box in the mail

So I got my first box of goodies for my giveaway today...
No pictures because I want it to be a surprise- but I am getting closer. My original goal was to have boxes out before I left for Maryland next week...but I am still waiting on a couple of things.,...so that's not going to happen. But soon...I promise.
I have second interviews scheduled for Friday....six of them. I think I am ready, but really can't wait until they are all over. At this point I am not sure when the job is even going to be decided upon...but I am excited because these interviews are with people that I don't get face time with on a regular basis so this will be good....any opportunity to make myself known, right?
Things were good today...productive day at work and a good evening with glasses of wine and dinner.
Hubby is out late tonight for work so I have enjoyed my quiet time this evening and am going to go read in bed for a little while before he gets home.
Harry Potter comes out this week and I am beyond excited to see this last movie. Debating on going at midnight on Thursday. not sure that's such a good idea with the interviews the next day..
Rambling a bit...hope all is well in your corners of the universe...sending love and lots of good wishes out to all of you on the back of star beams tonight!! Hugs and love

Running

Have you ever read a blog or an article about people running...
getting lost in the sounds of their footsteps
The almost meditative state that they can enter while running?
The amazing restorative power that running has for people?
I desperately want to be that person.
I want to be able to lose myself in a run...even if it's just on the treadmill
Forget about my life for half and hour
Pound pavement and just use the time to reflect on life.
I am NOT that person.
I got on the treadmill tonight because I keep trying to do it every single day
I HATE every single step
I can't lose myself in the run.
It disappoints me.
I keep trying, keep striving, keep getting on the treadmill to get to that point.
I am not sure that it will ever happen, but I guess as long as I am trying there's hope.
Tonight I was actually hoping to stretch out my legs a bit from strawberry picking yesterday. So far it hasn't helped but maybe if I just keep doing it I will get there.
I guess everyone has to start somewhere.
I wonder if those people are just born loving to run?
Not sure...but those are the thoughts for tonight.
I hope that you all had good weekends..
I made fifteen pints of jam last night....very productive..
And mondays seem to just come faster every single weekend.
Enjoy your monday!!
Hugs and lots of love to you all..

sigh...

The sun is out and it's Saturday morning...usually a lazy morning in my house, nothing to do, sleep in a bit and then start the day with a yummy cup of coffee and some toast. Today I was wide awake at quarter to five. I tried going back to sleep, couldn't and got up. I made coffee and sat and read a book, for fun, for the first time in about six months. Nice and relaxing.
I also went on the dreaded Walmart trip at six thirty so that trip is done with minimal exposure to the craziness that ensues in that store later in the day.
We are heading out to go strawberry picking and take a nice leisurely drive in the country....gonna hopefully try out the new camera.
I hope that you have an amazing Saturday full of love and smiles.....sending out good wishes, happiness and love to all of you today!!

Thursday's List

It has been a long, crazy week.
There are changes on the horizon.  I am not sure what they are...but I have that feeling...we will see what they bring..
This week, I ordered some stuff for the giveaway I did weeks ago.  I can't wait to get the packages in the mail.  I will be emailing those of you who won to get addresses soon.  I am hoping to put stuff in the mail before I leave to go to my parents house.
I go to my parent's house in 13 days.  We are celebrating my dad's birthday...I really can't wait to see my parents....I miss them..plus my brother has the whole week off from work.  So we are going to get to hang out...I seriously can't wait.
The last installment of Harry Potter comes out in a week!!! I am so excited for this movie.  I am a HUGE Harry Potter fan and will see the movie at midnight next week...and then again with my brother in Maryland....I CAN"T wait!
I sent out a box to a friend...I can't wait to hear how she liked it....very fun..
I think this weekend is going to be a jam making weekend.  We will go strawberry picking on Saturday and come home and make both strawberry and strawberry rhubarb.  If anyone wants me to include them in their packages (if you are in the US cause I can't sent food overseas...sorry) let me know....I also have apple jelly, cranberry jelly and I think orange marmalade left from last year!
It has been super warm this week...so fabulous...almost makes the winter worth it....
We had our first grilled pizzas of the summer tonight...so good.
I have another trip planned for the end of the summer.  I am going to Las Vegas!!  My "little" brother turns 30 this year and so we are going to Vegas to celebrate with him and his significant other, a friend of his and my parents.  It will be quite fun.  I can't wait to do that...so the end of the summer will be busy...
Hope that you are all doing well in your corners of the world.  Blogger is still not working well at the moment for me to leave comments...grrr.. frustrating..
Hope that your universe is happy and that you all have had reasons to smile this week.  Hugs and lots of love to all y'all!!

Good Morning!!

i hope that this morning finds all of you well.
I have been on an unplanned break from blogging because life just got crazy....and hubby and I have been having some very interesting conversations lately.
We were in the car yesterday,, coming home from the farmer's market and he asked me why I felt it necessary to share my life with complete strangers.  I asked him what he was talking about and he talked about blogging.  I tried to explain it to him, he just didn't get it.  He doesn't understand why I would want to put information out there about myself and my experiences for perfect strangers to read.
I tried to explain that like in real life, you are surrounded by circles of people and those people are all strangers at one point or another.  You talk with them in real life and you converse and they become friends.
I explained that blogging is the same thing, except you get to chose the pieces of your life that others see.  These strangers become your friends.  He still didn't get it.
I told him I  blog as a creative outlet.
I blog to get a different perspective on my life experiences
I blog to connect with people who I may not have connected with in "real" life and I have made some very real friendships this way.
He asked me if I will ever meet "those people" (his words, not mine).  I told him that I honestly didn't know if I would or not.  Maybe, someday, our paths will cross, but it is not something that I need to make these friendships more "real".
I told him, I know that I can write something about how I am feeling or what I am experiencing and in a few hours have comments from people that might make me think in a completely different way about it.
I know that there are people out there that will celebrate my accomplishments with me and will try to bolster me when I am feeling down.
There are people out there who I worry about when I don't hear from them for a day or even weeks.
My friends out there probably know more about the way I am thinking and what I am feeling because it is easier to put it out there when your not going to run into them the next day.
The conversation got a little heated and I got a bit defensive with him and we changed the subject.  I actually suggested that he start a blog.  I think he should try it, just on a limited basis if he wants to, just so he can feel the connections and understand why people "pour their hearts out to a bunch of strangers:.
See- I don't know what I would do without this outlet or this circle of friends in my life.  I rejoice with you when something good happens, laugh at the stories you tell, cry with you when you are sad, live vicariously through your pictures, give advice when needed, always have a hug to spare when a friend needs it and feel the hugs you send through the universe to me.  I value each and everyone of your friendships and I know that there are always new ones out there that will expand the circle.
So I thank you all for giving me this experience and this freedom to express my thoughts, desires, disappointments and photos.  I thank you for your support, hugs and comments.  I love this circle in my life and hope that it continues to grow for a long time!!
Hope that the world is treating you all well today.  Love and hugs from my corner of the world to yours!!