It ended up being a really great weekend.
Those kids will make me laugh, smile and eternally grateful that I can be part of their lives.
Hubby and I drove them back up north on Sunday.
We stayed in a hotel at the slots casino and won enough to cover the cost of the room, food and the vegetables that we bought the next day to plant....yay!!
We left up there relatively early and commenced a comedy of errors trying to pick up some random stuff that we needed life a new air mattress, a travel cup and of course vegetables for the "garden".
We went to four different stores before we were done and wouldn't you know I forgot gallon size plastic bags that I needed...
We dug in the dirt (sort of). We don't have a traditional garden, we plant in pots on the deck because it's easier than planting in the ground...no weeds this way and I don't have to worry about the animals as much. We will see what they produce. We have a couple of pepper plants, watermelon, squash, cucumbers, tomatoes and lettuce. Hopefully we will be able to supplement the food we have to buy in the grocery store.
It was back to work today...nothing out of the ordinary....they still haven't scheduled interviews for the new job yet...hopefully this week....
I am planning a trip with my girlfriend who was supposed to come up this weekend. Her little brother is getting married in August in Florida....she and her little girl are going and have asked me to come with them...so I am looking for plane tickets and a car....should be fun...her little girl hasn't been to the beach before so it will be fun to be there for that experience. I talked with them on the phone tonight...and she got on the phone and said Aunt Cole, I bury you in the sand. I said of course...she said tomorrow. I laughed and told in a few days. How many was the question I got back. I told her I didn't know but that I would send her a calendar so I will have to pull out my creative side to make a calendar and put it in the mail for her....maybe a "beach" kit for her..hmm..I will think about it.
today, I am most grateful for all of my nieces and nephews, both by blood and my friends kids I love like my own. They make me smile, make me feel loved and make me realize how truly lucky I am to be able to help them grow up.
Hope that all is well in your corners of the world. Sending out positive wishes to the universe for all of you...
About Me
- colenic
- Trying to remember that there is always a reason, always something that makes you smile during the day- recognizing the event, person or situation that made you smile will make your day seem that much better.
Tuesday, May 31, 2011
Saturday, May 28, 2011
Empty wrappers
First, before I share my story for today I want to say thank you to all of the new friends who have ventured over here and left such nice comments on my last blog. My friend and I are actually planning a trip together I think in August to a beach in florida for her little brother's wedding so every thing will work out for the best...
Today I have empty tootsie rolls wrappers all over my table and starburst papers on my floors
Wii games and remotes strewn from one end of the living room to another..
I made three different dinners tonight...
There are toy cars and pretzel stick in the glass that once held a drink....
I heard yelling, crying and and general loudness today,...
I also heard the peals of laughter and I love yous
Had sticky starburst hands hold mine
Listened to some really long rambling stories from a very serious four year old.
I got hugs, snuggles and kisses before bed time and a request to snuggle just "til we fall asleep"
Auntie tell me a story...a good story with pirate and mermaids
Auntie, I'll tell you a story
Auntie tell my story with me
Auntie can I snuggle with you while I fall asleep
Auntie it's okay you can go now as I tried to sneak away once they were asleep.
So yes, there are wrappers and half finished glass of soda all over my house, I made two dinners and then poured bowls of cereal, but there is nothing that feeds my soul the way those two nephews of mine do. They are the perfect remedy to the heaviness that was in my heart. When they look up at me with those puppy dog eyes, they know that I will melt....but this weekend they will never know how much I needed those puppy dog eyes, sticky hands and sloppy kisses....so everything happens for a reason.....and having them here, knowing that they will wake me in the morning and we will have cereal and then bacon and then maybe some pancakes and spend the day hanging out....can't get much better than that!
Today I have empty tootsie rolls wrappers all over my table and starburst papers on my floors
Wii games and remotes strewn from one end of the living room to another..
I made three different dinners tonight...
There are toy cars and pretzel stick in the glass that once held a drink....
I heard yelling, crying and and general loudness today,...
I also heard the peals of laughter and I love yous
Had sticky starburst hands hold mine
Listened to some really long rambling stories from a very serious four year old.
I got hugs, snuggles and kisses before bed time and a request to snuggle just "til we fall asleep"
Auntie tell me a story...a good story with pirate and mermaids
Auntie, I'll tell you a story
Auntie tell my story with me
Auntie can I snuggle with you while I fall asleep
Auntie it's okay you can go now as I tried to sneak away once they were asleep.
So yes, there are wrappers and half finished glass of soda all over my house, I made two dinners and then poured bowls of cereal, but there is nothing that feeds my soul the way those two nephews of mine do. They are the perfect remedy to the heaviness that was in my heart. When they look up at me with those puppy dog eyes, they know that I will melt....but this weekend they will never know how much I needed those puppy dog eyes, sticky hands and sloppy kisses....so everything happens for a reason.....and having them here, knowing that they will wake me in the morning and we will have cereal and then bacon and then maybe some pancakes and spend the day hanging out....can't get much better than that!
Friday, May 27, 2011
Day off...
I have today off....It has been one of those weeks that I just couldn't wait to get out of work...
Even though i am currently sitting on my deck typing this in the sun that has finally come out of hiding I am a bit sad...
You see I took today off because someone was supposed to come up for the weekend and visit me..
someone who I have known for a million (okay 21) years...
someone who went through the awkward adolescent stages with me.
Someone who's mother and father I know as well as my own (her dad actually holds the title as the only other father figure other than my own dad that I call dad...isn't that odd...lots of friends mom's have always been called mom but no one else's dad)...
We used to walk through the woods, sneak cigarettes, deal with first boyfriends, first kisses, first break ups, broken hearts..
We have dealt with growing apart with different groups of friends entirely, having nothing in common for a few years and grown back together to be thick as thieves
We graduated from high school together, dealt with moving to colleges that were light years apart, talking religiously once a week, played phone tag to get in touch with each other and always saw each other the first night I was home from college for any kind of vacations.
She was the person I called when i met hubby and told her that I had met the man I was going to marry, and she was the one who bolstered my spirits when I thought that we would only ever just be friends.
She was the first one I called when he proposed, even though it was eleven thirty at night and I knew she had to be up early the next day.
I was the first one she would call when her mom or dad were in the hospital for various health issues, we cried together when we thought it would be the end for one of them, and breathed a collective sigh of relief when the crisis was averted.
When she got married, I was the one she called to help her plan the wedding, and when she turned into bridezilla I was the one who did what she asked and took the brunt of it and several weeks later had a very angry conversation with her about the way she acted towards everyone that day. We cried together and made up.
I was the first one she called when she found out she was pregnant with her precious little girl after a year of trying and the first one to get a picture when she was born...
She is the one I call when once again I don't get pregnant in a month and she is the support that I need when I want to throw in the towel.
Her baby girl, who is now three, is the most precious child and talks to me in her gibberish on the phone and I cry when I know that I am missing her growing up....
I am the one who can spoil both of them with care packages because I know that money is tight and she knows that i only do it cause I love them and not because I expect anything in return.
We had the whole weekend planned, they were going to drive up with her hubby last night and spend the weekend enjoying Maine. Beaches, lobsters, a whale watch. Completed by sitting out each night on the back porch enjoying having this person who is so much a part of my soul being in my space and seeing how I live. Life got in the way, a broken hot water heater and other expenses happened and I wasn't able to find a cheap enough flight or bus or train to get her here. She didn't want to tell me because she thought I'd be mad...I told her i wasn't mad, just disappointed.
She called me earlier today to chat because we both had the day off in anticipation of seeing each other. Sometimes life gets in the way....but today...as I sit on my porch wishing I was waiting for the call that they were getting off the exit on the interstate and will be here in ten minutes, my heart hurts and my soul is crying a bit for the hug of a friend who's been there forever but is so far away.
Even though i am currently sitting on my deck typing this in the sun that has finally come out of hiding I am a bit sad...
You see I took today off because someone was supposed to come up for the weekend and visit me..
someone who I have known for a million (okay 21) years...
someone who went through the awkward adolescent stages with me.
Someone who's mother and father I know as well as my own (her dad actually holds the title as the only other father figure other than my own dad that I call dad...isn't that odd...lots of friends mom's have always been called mom but no one else's dad)...
We used to walk through the woods, sneak cigarettes, deal with first boyfriends, first kisses, first break ups, broken hearts..
We have dealt with growing apart with different groups of friends entirely, having nothing in common for a few years and grown back together to be thick as thieves
We graduated from high school together, dealt with moving to colleges that were light years apart, talking religiously once a week, played phone tag to get in touch with each other and always saw each other the first night I was home from college for any kind of vacations.
She was the person I called when i met hubby and told her that I had met the man I was going to marry, and she was the one who bolstered my spirits when I thought that we would only ever just be friends.
She was the first one I called when he proposed, even though it was eleven thirty at night and I knew she had to be up early the next day.
I was the first one she would call when her mom or dad were in the hospital for various health issues, we cried together when we thought it would be the end for one of them, and breathed a collective sigh of relief when the crisis was averted.
When she got married, I was the one she called to help her plan the wedding, and when she turned into bridezilla I was the one who did what she asked and took the brunt of it and several weeks later had a very angry conversation with her about the way she acted towards everyone that day. We cried together and made up.
I was the first one she called when she found out she was pregnant with her precious little girl after a year of trying and the first one to get a picture when she was born...
She is the one I call when once again I don't get pregnant in a month and she is the support that I need when I want to throw in the towel.
Her baby girl, who is now three, is the most precious child and talks to me in her gibberish on the phone and I cry when I know that I am missing her growing up....
I am the one who can spoil both of them with care packages because I know that money is tight and she knows that i only do it cause I love them and not because I expect anything in return.
We had the whole weekend planned, they were going to drive up with her hubby last night and spend the weekend enjoying Maine. Beaches, lobsters, a whale watch. Completed by sitting out each night on the back porch enjoying having this person who is so much a part of my soul being in my space and seeing how I live. Life got in the way, a broken hot water heater and other expenses happened and I wasn't able to find a cheap enough flight or bus or train to get her here. She didn't want to tell me because she thought I'd be mad...I told her i wasn't mad, just disappointed.
She called me earlier today to chat because we both had the day off in anticipation of seeing each other. Sometimes life gets in the way....but today...as I sit on my porch wishing I was waiting for the call that they were getting off the exit on the interstate and will be here in ten minutes, my heart hurts and my soul is crying a bit for the hug of a friend who's been there forever but is so far away.
Wednesday, May 25, 2011
Award time
Okay...I am sorry that I didn't post last night...I was some kinda tired when I got home last night and just couldn't being myself to post...
so without further adieu...from the wonderful Teresa over at The Middle Side of Life honored me with
Here are the rules:
1. Tell you who gave it to me. done and she's most fabulous..if you don't know her you really should...she is amazingly talented and honest and just very encouraging.
2. Put up a link to their blog.
3. Pay it Forward to five more bloggers.
Well, this one has been making the rounds so I know that many of you have gotten this one...so if I repeat just know it's cause you are pretty fantastic!!
First up, This is me at southhamsdarling. She shares an amazing part of the world with us every day. She leaves the best comments and takes beautiful pictures...you should check her out- I promise she's not really leaving like she says she is....at least if enough of us tell her not to she has to come back...
Tress over at Jumble Mash- she's getting married and has just recently started a second blog. She's pretty fun over there- you should totally check her out....
Jilda over at Transformation Information I have found her blog recently. She is inspiring and she has great insights....
Mynx over at Dribble she writes whatevers on her mind, is a true artist and hosts a damn good party....her post and the subsequence comments on her 300th post is the reason that I love blogging.
And finally Caterpillar over at Musings and Confessions of a Wandering Mind. She posts questions that make you think and ponder life in general...which is always fun and a great way of getting to know fellow bloggers...
Barb over at This and That added another rule that you should talk about one person who inspires you in the blog world. I don't know that I could name just one....all of you inspire me every single day. Your stories, pictures, art....they feed my heart....your support, friendship and understanding makes me smile and eternally grateful to all of you... the little world that we have created allows me time to sit back and immerse myself in something other than what's going on in my life.....so thank you all for being you, for writing and for reading what I have to say...
hugs and love to you all....
so without further adieu...from the wonderful Teresa over at The Middle Side of Life honored me with
Here are the rules:
1. Tell you who gave it to me. done and she's most fabulous..if you don't know her you really should...she is amazingly talented and honest and just very encouraging.
2. Put up a link to their blog.
3. Pay it Forward to five more bloggers.
Well, this one has been making the rounds so I know that many of you have gotten this one...so if I repeat just know it's cause you are pretty fantastic!!
First up, This is me at southhamsdarling. She shares an amazing part of the world with us every day. She leaves the best comments and takes beautiful pictures...you should check her out- I promise she's not really leaving like she says she is....at least if enough of us tell her not to she has to come back...
Tress over at Jumble Mash- she's getting married and has just recently started a second blog. She's pretty fun over there- you should totally check her out....
Jilda over at Transformation Information I have found her blog recently. She is inspiring and she has great insights....
Mynx over at Dribble she writes whatevers on her mind, is a true artist and hosts a damn good party....her post and the subsequence comments on her 300th post is the reason that I love blogging.
And finally Caterpillar over at Musings and Confessions of a Wandering Mind. She posts questions that make you think and ponder life in general...which is always fun and a great way of getting to know fellow bloggers...
Barb over at This and That added another rule that you should talk about one person who inspires you in the blog world. I don't know that I could name just one....all of you inspire me every single day. Your stories, pictures, art....they feed my heart....your support, friendship and understanding makes me smile and eternally grateful to all of you... the little world that we have created allows me time to sit back and immerse myself in something other than what's going on in my life.....so thank you all for being you, for writing and for reading what I have to say...
hugs and love to you all....
Monday, May 23, 2011
You know what I can't wait for...
So I just finished my paper...I am an incredible procrastinator....School will be over in four weeks ( I know...you must all be sick of hearing this).
I can't wait to....
have time to curl up with a good book on my kindle and read for fun....
make some cute cards for my friends
plant some plants and harvest some vegetables
Laugh with a friend on the phone without watching the clock to see how late it's getting
Write comments on all of your blogs after i read them
sit on the porch and listen to the rain (because it's never going to stop....come on really if the world is going to end I swear it's going to be a flood)
take my camera out and take pictures of whatever I want to..
make scrumptious looking dinners...
you all inspire me every single day....I read your blogs about all of the cool things that you are doing and I am in awe and honored to read about the happiness you are sprinkling into the world.
Thank you my friends...for making me look forward to something other than text books and papers!! Love you all!
(and I do promise tomorrow I am going to pass along the award....I think I have seen everyone who's gotten it)
I can't wait to....
have time to curl up with a good book on my kindle and read for fun....
make some cute cards for my friends
plant some plants and harvest some vegetables
Laugh with a friend on the phone without watching the clock to see how late it's getting
Write comments on all of your blogs after i read them
sit on the porch and listen to the rain (because it's never going to stop....come on really if the world is going to end I swear it's going to be a flood)
take my camera out and take pictures of whatever I want to..
make scrumptious looking dinners...
you all inspire me every single day....I read your blogs about all of the cool things that you are doing and I am in awe and honored to read about the happiness you are sprinkling into the world.
Thank you my friends...for making me look forward to something other than text books and papers!! Love you all!
(and I do promise tomorrow I am going to pass along the award....I think I have seen everyone who's gotten it)
Sunday, May 22, 2011
Award
Teresa- over at The Middle Side of Life gave me an award. It's one that popped up recently that I had never seen before:
There are some rules and such that I will need to address. I promise that I will soon...I need to think on it and honestly catch up on my bloggie friends to see who's received it and who hasn't. I promise that I will do this on Tuesday, as Monday's are homework nights.
There are some new followers and I want to welcome you all. I hope that you like what you see!
This was a good weekend, very relaxing. We did venture out yesterday to run some necessary errands and went to the movies. We saw the new Pirates of the Caribbean movie- we weren't impressed.
I hope that you all had a great weekend....the rain finally broke for a few hours yesterday but promises to come back this week....
I have a whole lot of nothing tonight...any one want to know anything??? Ask a question in comments if you do and I will address them going forward....
In the mean time I am going to bed...hope that you all have sweet dreams and a great day tomorrow!! Hugs to you all...
Saturday, May 21, 2011
Monsters...
Ever have the feeling that there are people watching your every move?
Studying, watching, pretending not to see but memorizing every single thing?
I have talked about some of the monster that hide under my bed...
They are watching from the corner right now...
you can see them if you turn your head fast enough,
just out of the corner of your eye...
Even more than the glimpses you catch,
you can feel them breathing down your neck.
The sickening, damp, hot breath so you know that they are there.
No matter how much I pretend, how much I ignore,
I know that they are there...
watching....
waiting...
ready to pounce..
Studying, watching, pretending not to see but memorizing every single thing?
I have talked about some of the monster that hide under my bed...
They are watching from the corner right now...
you can see them if you turn your head fast enough,
just out of the corner of your eye...
Even more than the glimpses you catch,
you can feel them breathing down your neck.
The sickening, damp, hot breath so you know that they are there.
No matter how much I pretend, how much I ignore,
I know that they are there...
watching....
waiting...
ready to pounce..
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