Creativity

I have probably posted in the past about Zentangle.
It is something that my mother has been doing for a while and was actually just certified to teach.
As I am always looking for a new way to be creative, I have picked it up...
It is something I can do at night while sitting with hubby watching TV (instead of those ridiculously addictive facebook games)
It is something that you will find in the margins of my notebooks at work....particularly during long meetings..
It is an art that allows you to be concentrating on doing it....and let's you get into an almost meditative state while practicing...
For me, it's just something fun and creative....it will be one of those tings that I will have multiple sketch pads full of with no real idea of what I will do with it...
it opens those pathways in mind that allow me to feel creative..
Pintrest is full of amazing ideas and although you may base your idea off of something that you find, yours is going to come out looking unique and different...
Here are some pictures of what I have worked on this week...
Things are a bit insane (which is nothing new really) here and this is something that allows me to relax and zone out for a while..
Hope you are well...sending love and positive thoughts on the back of the wind to all of you tonight! Hugs

Some times things don't turn out like you want them to..

long awaited news today...

not really what I wanted to hear...

interesting opportunities..

where to go from here?

When you want something so badly..

a path that you have worked towards...

all the support is there...

but for some reason the next step doesn't take you down that path...

What do you do then??

You don't know what's going to be around the next corner...

sometimes it feels like an insurmountable mountain..

no matter how high you climb, 

how many twists, 

how many turns, 

How dark it gets, 

you can't seem to find the end..

The path changes, 

there's an off shoot..

not one that you expected..

not one you anticipated..

one that in some ways is good..

in other ways, 

you know when you take that first step,

there's an even higher mountain to climb,

more twists and turns..

and it feels like all of a sudden those supporters aren't there any more..

people stand in your way

block the path,

want you to give up..

to those people,

bring it on..

i will climb the mountain

around the sharp turns,

over the ledges you put in my way,

because I know that on the other side is the rest of the journey...

I will prove you wrong,

i will make it..

and when I look back...

I promise, you won't look nearly as big,

the obstacles, once conquered, will be merely memories...

because this is my path,

whether you think it should be or not, 

and you are not going to stand in my way.

Amazing night

I have kicked off my shoes,
Taken the bobby pins out of my hair,
and taken out the earrings that were dangling from my ears...
I spent yesterday evening shopping for the perfect dress with my husband..
and today running around, trying to find the perfect earrings to go with the dress I bought last night...
Getting my hair done
getting my nails done
finding that ever elusive perfect red lipstick
putting on makeup
Struggling to put on panty hose
finding a bracelet
making sure I could still walk in heels
straightening a bow tie
Going to an event where everyone seemed to know every one
being taken under someone's wing and being introduced around...
Witnessing a ceremony that I am not sure I entirely understood
being hugged and kissed on the cheeks by some very nice older men
and watching my husband honor his grandfather in a very personal way and starting down a path, following in his grandfather's footsteps.
Getting a bit choked up as he took an oath to honor their ways
As an officer who was appointed to his post
Knowing his grandfather did the same thing so many many years ago..
Being a supportive wife, even though there are things about this group that he can't share with me.
Knowing how much this means to him,
knowing that he does this for someone, who I never had the privilege of meeting, to honor him and his memory.
Then hanging out with those same people,
talking,
laughing,
enjoying just one glass of wine.
Talking about fundraising
making jokes
laughing
Tonight David, a year after joining, became an officer at his Masonic Lodge.
And although my feet hurt,
My head is a bit sore from the bobby pins
and I can't wait to get this makeup off my face,
I have never been prouder of him and his commitment to this
And I will do everything i can to support him in this.

I just love a man in a tuxedo...even more so when it is tails...and especially because he's all mine..

End of the night, but I love this picture (and my dress...I really did feel amazing tonight in this)

Hugs and love to you all!

Unexpected Visit

I saw you last night...
felt your smile..
heard your laughter...
Had a good long talk with you..
All of a sudden you were just there...
and the words poured out...
Just like it was yesterday...
The truth was that i have been thinking about you lately..
Knowing that it had been six years since we last spoke...
or more correctly, since I spoke to you..
and yet there you were clear as day as I slumbered...
We were in that little coffee spot...
me drinking tea...
you drinking your coffee...two sugars, no cream..
we ate a meal together just like old times...
I started to catch you up on my life..
and you assured me that you knew..
You gave me the advice...
validation..
that I have been so desperately wanting to hear from you...
I was mesmerized...
by your smile..
the light in your eyes...
the cadence of your voice..
it ended much too soon.
As the sun started to rise in the sky...
I knew it was ending...
I started to cry..
You hugged me...
I could feel your arms around me...
the best hugs ever...
you always poured your heart and soul into your hugs..
I have missed those hugs...
those few moments when I knew that you didn't want to be anywhere else...
just standing there, hugging me...
as you started to pull away,
I pulled you closer and started to cry...
you wiped the tears from my eyes...
told me not to worry...
that I would see you again...
and when I didn't see you,
you were watching,
loving me from afar...
that I never lost you..
you were always there...
You faded away...
I felt the sun streaming in the window and rolled over...
I heard the music of a wind chime..
and although it was just a dream,
I knew that it was real..