I am fine
Hubby is fine
Kitties are fine
Everything is fine
But everything isn't fine.
What does fine mean anyway?
Fine means..
I don't want to talk about it
I want you to ask more about it
Are you really listening?
Pissed off
mad
Irritated
Melancholy
Content
happy
Good
busy
Crazy
Pulling my hair out
Any or all of the above...
A four letter word that can mean so much...
and yet not mean anything at all.
The question is, when someone says their fine- do you stop to find out what it really means?
hugs love and positive thoughts to the blog universe today...and always. I have been thinking of you often and staring at the blank screen trying to find something to write.
About Me
- colenic
- Trying to remember that there is always a reason, always something that makes you smile during the day- recognizing the event, person or situation that made you smile will make your day seem that much better.
Tuesday, June 19, 2012
Monday, June 11, 2012
Going back
Walk through the door
It will be what it will be
Hands shaking
Realizing the fear
Do they remember?
Have they forgotten?
Was it all a dream?
Are they rose colored glasses or was it really what you remember?
Walk through the door, hearing the hustle and bustle.
Stop just inside to get your bearings
Deep breath to calm your nerves
Memories come flooding in
Sounds
Voices
Laughter
Tears
Lost in the moment until the arms encircle you in a hug
Someone you haven’t seen in years
Facebook Friends…whatever that means these days
In that hug, all the memories you shared together encircle you both
Weaving the bubble that encompasses your memories
Every hug extends the bubble
Every squeal of I haven’t seen you/ how have you been/ what are you doing.
Doors open
Doors close
Pictures
Memories
Songs
All of a sudden you are filled with the sounds, the voices, the laughter and yes, the tears.
A moment of silence, beyond the fray
Just a minute to remember
To let the ghosts whisper in your ears
Eyes closed and you can’t help but hear them.
Your heart fills, your soul is calm.
Memories are shared
Small things, that you never realized, are remembered
Those people shaped your life and realize, in your own way, you helped to shape theirs too.
You are hesitant to leave,
Knowing that you can’t stay there forever
One last hug
One last moment
Turn around
Don’t look back
Exhale
Things change, time passes, life goes on, but there are some places, some moments, some memories that bind so tightly that in just one breath all is right with the world.
It will be what it will be
Hands shaking
Realizing the fear
Do they remember?
Have they forgotten?
Was it all a dream?
Are they rose colored glasses or was it really what you remember?
Walk through the door, hearing the hustle and bustle.
Stop just inside to get your bearings
Deep breath to calm your nerves
Memories come flooding in
Sounds
Voices
Laughter
Tears
Lost in the moment until the arms encircle you in a hug
Someone you haven’t seen in years
Facebook Friends…whatever that means these days
In that hug, all the memories you shared together encircle you both
Weaving the bubble that encompasses your memories
Every hug extends the bubble
Every squeal of I haven’t seen you/ how have you been/ what are you doing.
Doors open
Doors close
Pictures
Memories
Songs
All of a sudden you are filled with the sounds, the voices, the laughter and yes, the tears.
A moment of silence, beyond the fray
Just a minute to remember
To let the ghosts whisper in your ears
Eyes closed and you can’t help but hear them.
Your heart fills, your soul is calm.
Memories are shared
Small things, that you never realized, are remembered
Those people shaped your life and realize, in your own way, you helped to shape theirs too.
You are hesitant to leave,
Knowing that you can’t stay there forever
One last hug
One last moment
Turn around
Don’t look back
Exhale
Things change, time passes, life goes on, but there are some places, some moments, some memories that bind so tightly that in just one breath all is right with the world.
Thursday, June 7, 2012
Thursdays Smiles
Sorry I have been MIA...
Smiles for the last couple of weeks:
Getting to see those wonderful people who I grew up with who know more about me than I like to admit and are as close as family to me...
Getting to spend two extra days with them because of plane delays due to mechanical issues and weather (yes, I am seeing this as a positive now...not so much at the time and hence why my schedule has been all screwed up for a week)
Being happy to be home
Snuggling with my hubby and my kitties.
My bed...after sleeping on an air mattress or a couch for five days crawling into my own bed was heavenly!!
Spending a low key weekend at home with my hubby. We watched Season 4 of True blood...SO good.
Work is a bit crazy right now but I would rather be busy than the alternative.
This weekend hubby and I are going back to the place where we met for the 25 anniversary of the "barn" also known as the theatre on our college campus where we met.
We are both looking forward to going back to see how our little college has changed, see people who we spent insane amounts of time with while rehearsing and putting together sets, and reminisce about how much it all meant to each of us.
The past couple of weeks have been very introspective for me and I am loving being able to go back in time to see who I was and how the individual pieces of the puzzle have fit together to help me become the person I am today.
I have said often, I am the sum of my experiences, both good and bad and the reflection and perspective I have been able to gain over the last few weeks is priceless. I promise a better post about it once this weekend is over...
I am sending positive thoughts like shooting stars across the midnight blue sky to all of you. I miss you all and hope you are well..
Smiles for the last couple of weeks:
Getting to see those wonderful people who I grew up with who know more about me than I like to admit and are as close as family to me...
Getting to spend two extra days with them because of plane delays due to mechanical issues and weather (yes, I am seeing this as a positive now...not so much at the time and hence why my schedule has been all screwed up for a week)
Being happy to be home
Snuggling with my hubby and my kitties.
My bed...after sleeping on an air mattress or a couch for five days crawling into my own bed was heavenly!!
Spending a low key weekend at home with my hubby. We watched Season 4 of True blood...SO good.
Work is a bit crazy right now but I would rather be busy than the alternative.
This weekend hubby and I are going back to the place where we met for the 25 anniversary of the "barn" also known as the theatre on our college campus where we met.
We are both looking forward to going back to see how our little college has changed, see people who we spent insane amounts of time with while rehearsing and putting together sets, and reminisce about how much it all meant to each of us.
The past couple of weeks have been very introspective for me and I am loving being able to go back in time to see who I was and how the individual pieces of the puzzle have fit together to help me become the person I am today.
I have said often, I am the sum of my experiences, both good and bad and the reflection and perspective I have been able to gain over the last few weeks is priceless. I promise a better post about it once this weekend is over...
I am sending positive thoughts like shooting stars across the midnight blue sky to all of you. I miss you all and hope you are well..
Saturday, June 2, 2012
trip away
Ever gone on one of those trips where you knew you needed something...
Your soul renewed
Peace regained
A connection with you past?
Last weekend was that trip for me.
I spent time in a place that was so much a part of me that I didn't even realize I missed it
Spent time with people, some who I talk to all the time and others who I haven't spoken to in years.
I went to places that just felt....right.
I laughed until I cried
I cried until I laughed
I sat in silence, just able to soak in the energy that flowed around me
Reminisced about old times
Caught up on people's lives
Realized that roots run deeper than I could imagine.
Drove post my old house
Through my old neighborhood
Went to the places we frequented as children.
I realized that that place is my foundation, my rock and while things never change- they have altered my very core.
The air smelled different,
the food was of my past
every corner had a memory.
Kids have grown,
neighbors moved away
But if you listened closely, you could hear laughter on every breeze, memories in every blade of grass.
You could hear the past swirl around you,
You could breath in the love, support and innocence of a different time.
I haven't lived there in sixteen years,
and will never live their again
But it is nice to know that the roots of what makes me who I am are still strong.
I was able to feed them, nurture them and walk away knowing the foundation is solid.
Love and hugs to you all!!
Your soul renewed
Peace regained
A connection with you past?
Last weekend was that trip for me.
I spent time in a place that was so much a part of me that I didn't even realize I missed it
Spent time with people, some who I talk to all the time and others who I haven't spoken to in years.
I went to places that just felt....right.
I laughed until I cried
I cried until I laughed
I sat in silence, just able to soak in the energy that flowed around me
Reminisced about old times
Caught up on people's lives
Realized that roots run deeper than I could imagine.
Drove post my old house
Through my old neighborhood
Went to the places we frequented as children.
I realized that that place is my foundation, my rock and while things never change- they have altered my very core.
The air smelled different,
the food was of my past
every corner had a memory.
Kids have grown,
neighbors moved away
But if you listened closely, you could hear laughter on every breeze, memories in every blade of grass.
You could hear the past swirl around you,
You could breath in the love, support and innocence of a different time.
I haven't lived there in sixteen years,
and will never live their again
But it is nice to know that the roots of what makes me who I am are still strong.
I was able to feed them, nurture them and walk away knowing the foundation is solid.
Love and hugs to you all!!
Thursday, May 24, 2012
Heading South!!
I am leaving on a jet plane...
going to one of my favorite places in the world!!
going to one of my favorite places in the world!!
Source: http://pittsburgh.issa.org/
Going to visit some of my favorite people!
I'll be back on Monday!!
Hope that you all have a weekend full of love, fun, cookouts and lots of smiles!!
Love and hugs!
Sunday, May 20, 2012
Weekend smiles....and 400th post
This is my 400th post....I can't believe that I have had things to say 400 times...pretty crazy!! I have met some pretty amazing people in these 400 posts and found and outlet to record the positive and sometimes not so positive stuff in my life...
It's only apt to have this post be about some projects that we have conquered in my house...and by we I mostly mean my hubby and his father...
I live in an old house....like almost 100 years old...plaster, lathe and outdated electricity have made for some interesting projects
The light in my hallway went out a few weeks ago and we had no idea why...but after trying the usual things, hubby put duct tape over the switch and said don't touch until dad comes.
This weekend they came...
and they cut into walls..
and realized that most of the electricity was not done well....and was running out of one junction box...so like so many other projects...this one quick thing turned into a nightmare.
Holes were cut, wire was pulled. floors were pulled up..and pulled up again.
lots of swearing, a bit of exhaustion and a whole lot of frustration were swirling like the plaster dust in my house this weekend.
Two trips to Lowes and two trip to Home Depot, three starbucks runs, Subway sandwiches and a six pack of beer later...
The electrical wiring is re run to the lights in my ceilings downstairs.
One thing that I have been asking for since we moved into the house is light switches.
I have none downstairs...
The kitchen light is on a pull string.
The dining room light is on a pull string.
The living room light, we replaced with a remote controlled ceiling fan.
So the bonus for the weekend was the I have LIGHT SWITCHES!!!
Four of them.
This is the beginning of the first two...pretty excited.
And it means that I got to hang a light that I bought two years ago....
It was an inspiration light..
meaning that I was hoping that if I bought it they would get to the switches faster...
It didn't quite work that way...I don't think that hubby really likes the light..
But me...
I have walked all around the outside of the house to see it through every window!!
Here it is...not sure if it's going to work yet...but after a couple of stops and starts and rewiring it twice...
It works!! And I LOVE it...
Hubby still not so much...but I am like a kid who discovers what the switches do...I have been flicking them on and off for the last hour!!
I don't have a hall light yet- but the wiring is there so hopefully this will be done this week..
Hubby is hammering the bedroom floor back down as we speak..
There are twenty tons of plaster dust stuck everywhere...
tempers flew at times...
There are tools all over the house
And a few holes in the ceiling still....
BUT...
I have a light switch!!
Wednesday, May 16, 2012
Quick Stop
Just to tell you all that I am thinking about you...
Sending positive thoughts to you all on a regular basis and hoping that there are things that are making you smile every day.
Hugs and lots of love!
Sending positive thoughts to you all on a regular basis and hoping that there are things that are making you smile every day.
Hugs and lots of love!
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